am i finally becoming a true blogger 

i think i need to document how my day goes, each day. but i'm very bad at consistency, literally. not that i'm blaming this onto my mental health, but i think it contributes into this matter too.

i'm not a good person. i want to try to be one. that doesn't sound how i wanted,,, defining a good person is those who do house chores, helping family members going through their lives because i literally do nothing but sit infront of my laptop. and it makes me feel like i'm an ungrateful daughter.

planning out my day in my head kinda makes me even anxious and it's bad for me BUT how should i do this really. T.T

i want to try journalling. doesn't matter if i can't write, i just want to see what i have accomplished each day. but firstly, i need to do all the lists of what i want to do. WHICH I PROCRASTINATE SINCE FOREVER.

(I'll edit this post again, my brain just got stuck I lost everything what I was tryna write)