I am watching Angel's Last Mission: Love. Heartbreaking plot, you'd cry every episode!!! And I absolutely love it.

Inspired by the plot, I always know good things never stay the same until the end. They are either changed or ended. Whenever the scene got so bubbly and happy, I'd get anxious over it like "oh shit another heartbreak after this" and I AM ALWAYS CORRECTTT.

I'm listening to the drama's OST.

It's alright, it's alright. Even though I'll lose everything. It's alright, it's alright. There would be someone next to me

The song would come on whenever it gets TOO SAD to comprehend. Believe me my head once hurt because I cried too much.

They didn't know how much time they have left so they want to live their life together to the fullest, and it hits me straight through my bones.

I always know good things never stay the same until the end and they are either changed or ended.

I experienced many heartbreaks this year. A break up that I never once imagined at start, group of friends that couldn't stay together, and another I don't know if it's a break up but I'll assume it as one.

Each of it differs, each of it affects me differently, each of it gives me different life lesson.

One, never expect someone to change they way they are or accept the way you are. The differences between you and them, will collide and cause big damage. There's nothing wrong in you or them, it's just, you are different from them.

Two, never expect good things stay. At a point, you were unbreakable and invincible. But, it just only at that point. Things will, always change not according how we plan. Always.

Three, never expect good things stay. They would give many excuses but personally I think it's just them, not wanting to invest on us anymore. They never really want us at the very start, they only love the feeling how things are at a point. And that's just it.

The drama talks a lot about time. Male and female lead fall in love but they shouldn't. But they insist so they would spend every second of their life together forever but forever isn't that long and far. It could be 1 year, or 1 month, or even 1 day. That 1 day they love each other and give their best to the fullest to each other, is forever.

Bumped onto a video that talks about everything you have experienced, He has reasons for it to shape who you are today. We do have days when we think to ourselves, "I wish I don't know them" but we meet and bump onto each other, being a part of each other's life for reasons.

For us to be wiser, stronger and better.

(Until here. Don't scroll unless you want to read cringe love or should I call it as break up letter)


To you, you might read this. I have an impression you check my blog from time to time.

You've been (what I see) avoiding me after you sent those break up texts.

I did ask you so many times, do you still want me, that morning.

I should've get you, when you answered me uncertainly, "Nak je..."

I literally begged you to stay.

I literally gave you so many chances but you never do something with them.

I gave up since months ago, just to let you know. But I refused to steep so low, send break up texts and then just vanished like you are doing right now at this second because I'm not a loser. I want to treat everyone the best as I could.

I feel like I've been thrown away.

That's okay.

This very short time I had with you, I never felt so loved, so appreciated. No one would call me first but you did. Even at times when we didn't promise to talk that night. When I asked why, you said "Just because." Never felt so loved. And other moments, let it remains between us.

I've been knew good things never stay. I've been very negative about future.

But I'm glad I spent every second of it to the fullest, I gave you all my best. I treated you the best as I could. I don't know about you.

I noticed a pattern. Good things, are never meant to be there until the end. Never.

However, I still believe what we lacked was time. I had so many times yet you weren't. Your life is very busy unlike mine. I have no reason to check on Lazada while talking to the person I haven't talk for days (yes sakit hati lagi pasal ni I can't seem to forgive you yet).

I'll find someone who has same range of time as mine. I hope you'll find it too.

I loved every second of it. Even though I know it won't last.

Thank you.