in two weeks my break ends.

my mind is already planning stuff I want to buy, how to decorate my room, finding youtube videos to keep me motivated and to stop me from procrastinating, and also worrying about my waitlisted classes.

I hope next semester would be better one than previous semesters. I got two Cs and it feels like a hearty punch to my face. these days I've been reflecting on ways how to finish my work (as in consultations, and improving language). I hope I don't get over stressed on assignments ugh. also, I've been reflecting on my emotion trails. I can get unstable at times and it does affect my work quality and how I treat my friends and previously, boyfriend but now I'm single bUT OKAY.

last week, I was on my unstable period. it suffocated me as much, i got breathless some times, overthinking most of the time, and I cried a lot. I finished 12 books to distract me but eventually failed yes. and one last thing during this period, I napped a lot. like A LOT.

Now, I guess I'm doing fine. I'm excited to go shopping and more planning for next semester.

I really hope it would turn out way way better than last semester. finger crossed