I received a confession.

Not very heartfelt one, but I think it's just mere lowkey crush.

I asked him many things.

Why? Which part of me that is likable?

And I asked him, if we tried to work things out, could you handle me when I'm on mood swings, when I'm angry, when I'm clingy, when my brain starts thinking critically over movies I watched, when I want to rant out how my day went, and could you be there when I'm on my way back to my room from silat training.

He said he could, but he's quite busy. Red flag.

I told him that whatever he saw until today, is just on a surface. I'm more than what I showed online.

If not, why everyone left me at the end, no?

I'm being total pessimistic on this. I don't want to work things out. I don't want to jump on this again.

Back back then, I remember how I cried confessing how I was scared to like him even more, but I did like him a lot. I was scared if he was just being kind.

We happened, but for a short time.

Then, everyone eventually left me.

This, somehow just don't turned out well for me.

I don't want to work things out. If I ever liked a new person, I want to keep it that way. If I ever liked a new person. But it seems very unlikely to happen.

I'm not waiting on him, I'm just waiting for the time to heal me.