i think i keep on repeating the same mistakes. i uttered words that potentially hurt the other party without considering.

to everyone who affected by my carelessness in choosing words, i am deeply sorry.

this is the coward way of apologizing, indirectly through my blog post as if you read it. but i hope you do.

i've said hateful stuff, especially when i'm angry. i've promised myself to stay silent when i'm angry but i still didn't manage to do it.

you have all the rights to not forgiving me what i've said. because even if i promise you to not doing it again, it still there. it happened.

i won't invalidate your feelings. if it hurts, it hurts. if it offends you, it offends you. i'm very sorry for not reaching you directly and apologize sincerely directly to you.

i'm scared if it's all in my mind.

i am sorry for offending you, spitting stuff that hurts you, and being ignorant of it for quite some time until today.

i'm deeply sorry. i'm sorry. i really do.