avoiding feeling disappointed unconsciously taught me to stop feeling anything towards anybody.

i don't feel strongly to anybody as i always did before.

i've always been easily attached to people and became obsessed with it.

my fear of losing people is still here, making me all confused.

i want to keep everyone close to me, until the end. but i know better that the thought of them leave is inevitable. but this time, i feel like i am leaving them. maybe i know it's tiring to feel so so much on someone. then i chose to ignore

ignore until, i feel nothing, today.

i'm not as excited as before. and i'm feeling sad because of this. 

i detached myself from them. 

maybe it was meant to not working out, after all, i was just too attached. 

i'm sorry for feeling this way. but i unconsciously taught myself to not feel as attached as before to avoid feeling disappointed.

do everyone feel the same way? is that why they all left me?

maybe it is. and if it really is, i understand it now.