it has been about a month.

for the first time, i got to keep myself shut and not asking where you at. fell asleep without texting you any wishes but deep inside giggling upon you searched for me.

the way my heart still longs for you.

such a bad timing, this is. 

i don't know what 'risky' meant to you, but i translated that as 'it's not you that i'm searching for'.

i went to my friends, wailing for comfort. i had consecutive weeks of bullshit i need to face. among all, your comfort was the one i secretly insisted but never got them.

i am trying to let go of this, learning to accept the fact that you don't want me 'that' way. i didn't cry as hard as i expected i was going to, but i can feel my heart breaks every single time you shared some affections. because i know i won't and can't have that for myself.

you will find the dream person, that fits each and every hollow of yours. and i am not the one.

i wish nothing but the best. i hope you can find your peace soon.

rasa macam if i ever got to meet you, i nangis je kot. :D