I've heard phrases like "I like seeing you, it makes me calm" uttered to me but I couldn't understand what they meant by that. Broadly, my understanding of love was a commitment, something that I have to work on, I have to put my effort into it. Overall, my previous relationships were about me, working on it, until I got exhausted because of expectations. But now, I think my understanding of love has slightly changed when it comes to you.

You had a busy week finishing all your works. So many things (read: inconveniences) happened to you, I couldn't find any better words or actions to comfort you. You have worked hard (yes you are, don't gaslight your efforts) and I'm very proud of you. I wish I could have done better to comfort you. Instead, I feel comforted just by seeing your face. Listening to your voice is therapeutic. Watching your videos makes me cackling over nothing. You're such a ball of joy, that comes into my life uninvited yet awaited for so long.  I'm proud to stand along beside you here. I hope you seek comfort in me just like I do. I asked to video call quite often even during the day because seeing your face brings such warmth. 

Warmth. If I were to choose any word to describe you, warm. Your presence, warm. The way you speak, warm. Your gaze, warm. Most definitely your touch will be warm as well and I can't wait to hug you when we meet.

I love you, I love looking at you. I love listening to you. I love having you around. 

I like seeing you, it feels calming and it feels like a home.